I just realized that I haven't eaten anything of substance since noon. I figured I had better eat something before I have to fast until around 11 o'clock tomorrow morning. Tomorrow is my big appointment in Sayre, PA. I have to meet with a psychiatrist, dietician, have a full blood work panel done, and then have an x-ray tomorrow. That will satisfy all of my requirements before we schedule my surgery. I'm pretty sure that tomorrow I will make my pre-surgery appointment.
It's all coming together, it seems. I suffered through the sleep study and only hallucinated a little bit while I was trying to stay awake for my last day of work at the Center and then Trunk or Treat. I keep thinking things about myself and about how I want myself to look. I think about how uncomfortable I am just to sit. All the time. It's hard to figure out what to do with my hands. Most people of normal size don't think about these things. They just fold their hands in their lap. I can't do that and be comfortable. I think about going up and down the stairs at work constantly. My office is upstairs so I have to go up there several times a day. When I get up there, I'm out of breath. There are many other things. The pain I experience is a huge one. Every day, that first step out of bed...a painful reminder that the plantar fascitis is still going strong in my foot. The back injury that haunts me out of nowhere, just because I do a silly thing like sleep in a strange bed in a hotel room one night. All of that can (and will be) a thing of the past. I look forward to that day.
And then my job. I do like my job. I am eager to finish my training so that I can take complete charge of the office and get things more organized. So many issues there are all being thrown at me at one time and it's easy to see why I was hired. At first, I wondered a little bit. But now, I understand. It makes perfect sense. And I'm looking forward to making the office a better place for people to work. I had to fire my first person today. Even though I did it in a round about way, I still felt bad. I say "round about" because I only handed her a letter of dismissal and then asked for her keys, since I wasn't her supervisor to begin with. It's tough to be the heavy hand. I'm learning this first-hand. I spent most of the day working on the schedule for the next week because people have to be shifted a little bit at first so that all of us "newbies" can get our training. These first few weeks are going to be tough. But then, things should settle down some.
I must say, I do enjoy the feeling of being in charge. I feel like I have a pretty level head on my shoulders and usually I can look at a situation and say, "No, I think it would work better if we did it THIS way." And usually, when people have taken my advice in the past, it has worked. I enjoy praising the workers at Dr. Addams' office for the hard work that they do. I think we have a good team of people together now. And I think if we all pull together and work hard for these next few weeks, we can make that good team of people an EXCEPTIONAL team of people.
It is after 11 now as I write this. I have to be up early to drive to Sayre tomorrow. So, I will say good night. And I'll update again tomorrow about my appointments in Sayre. Thanks for reading.
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